Wednesday, July 8, 2015

Why Are You Single?

This is literally the question that I got really often on my
Why are you single? How can you be single for a long term?
Well, today is your lucky day folks. I'm going to answer this question in a very long answer.

I've been single for a year now, I know thats not too long but oh well for some people it's long.
I don't know whats going on with me lately, maybe this is called growing up, maybe I'm already a grown up (lol jk def not) but I just don't have any interests in dating or even letting boys to get to know me or having a cute-goals kind of relationship, I'm so over a cute-swag-badass kind of boyfriend, I just want a gentle man. A smart, open minded kind of guy, and I'm looking for a serious relationship. I'm just so over the 'main2' relationships that only last for a couple of months.

Call me bullshit but I just want to focus on school, family & friends right now and reach my goals basically. Well, based on how i see my self back in the middle school & (especially) at the end of elementary school, I didnt really enjoyed my life everytime I was in a relationship, I blocked out some important people in my life, I didnt attend some of my family events just to went out on a date with my (ex) boyfriend, I know, it sounds so bad, it is though.

I used to got mad and sad all the time. Jealousy which caused hatred towards me and girls that close with my (ex) boyfriend, even with my best friend I can be jealous. Boyfriends can be suck sometimes, or most of the time, that's why in the last relationship I had last year I told my self not to be like that sucks girlfriend who overprotected their boyfriend and being excessive jealousy, I just want to be a chill girlfriend who don't give a shit when girls hangout with my boyfriend.

I hate fighting with friends over A STUPID BOY, I didnt think that way when I was in elementary & middle school and I regret that everyday of my life. But you know, just look at the positive side, forget what hurt you in the past, but never forget what it taught you. I failed, then I learned. I'm a better person now, I'm not the person I was anymore. I don't want to waste my time on defending a boy who's not even guaranteed that he's gonna marry me or be with me forever.

I don't want to fight over a guy who's not even gonna fight for me. I want to spend my precious time with people who are important role in my life. No guy is worth crying over, and if he was he won't make you cry, would he? Yup that makes sense to me. There are so many boys out there, I'm still young, I still have more important things to do so galau-ing (being sad/crying) over a boy is definitely not worth your time hun. That's my mind set. We may have different perceptions, but that was mine. Hope you can appreciate it.